Down But Not Out

RA Guy Adventures of RA Guy

Superman Power ParasiteThe book that Rheumatoid Arthritis Guy is currently reading – The Sparrow – is a wonderful science fiction read that explores the ideas of relativity and long-distance space travel. As the cast of characters plan their journey to the Alpha Centauri world of Rakhat (they will be traveling inside a meteor!), they describe how time slows down for people moving close to the speed of light. Thus, the trip, which will appear to last over thirty years for people on Earth, will only seem to last seven months for them. (Don’t quote me on the specifics.)

Sometimes, this is what my RA mornings feel like – just a couple of hours for people on the outside, but an eternity for me. As you might have guessed from the title of this post, Rheumatoid Arthritis Guy is currently getting his butt kicked right now. I might be down, but I am definitely not out…even during those morning hours when I am experiencing so much pain and stiffness that I can barely even more (like today).

Every now and then I will have a moment of clarity, in which I tell myself that I wish I could be doing something else with all of this time. I used to feel like such a loser, finally rolling out of bed hours after everyone else. Not any more. I know that during those hours my body is fighting its strongest  fight, and that I need to give it the time needs to recover from the latest punches and prepare for the next round of punches.

I used to add to my anxiety, by telling myself that I wished this was over RIGHT NOW! Of course I wouldn’t wish to go through one extra minute of this…but I know that while this flare might not taper as quickly as maybe I would like it to, that it eventually will pass – I just need to give it time.

So this is where I find myself. I hope not to be here long!

Stay tuned…for the next adventure of Rheumatoid Arthritis Guy!