Down But Not Out

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Superman Power ParasiteThe book that Rheumatoid Arthritis Guy is currently reading – The Sparrow – is a wonderful science fiction read that explores the ideas of relativity and long-distance space travel. As the cast of characters plan their journey to the Alpha Centauri world of Rakhat (they will be traveling inside a meteor!), they describe how time slows down for people moving close to the speed of light. Thus, the trip, which will appear to last over thirty years for people on Earth, will only seem to last seven months for them. (Don’t quote me on the specifics.)

Sometimes, this is what my RA mornings feel like – just a couple of hours for people on the outside, but an eternity for me. As you might have guessed from the title of this post, Rheumatoid Arthritis Guy is currently getting his butt kicked right now. I might be down, but I am definitely not out…even during those morning hours when I am experiencing so much pain and stiffness that I can barely even more (like today).

Every now and then I will have a moment of clarity, in which I tell myself that I wish I could be doing something else with all of this time. I used to feel like such a loser, finally rolling out of bed hours after everyone else. Not any more. I know that during those hours my body is fighting its strongest  fight, and that I need to give it the time needs to recover from the latest punches and prepare for the next round of punches.

I used to add to my anxiety, by telling myself that I wished this was over RIGHT NOW! Of course I wouldn’t wish to go through one extra minute of this…but I know that while this flare might not taper as quickly as maybe I would like it to, that it eventually will pass – I just need to give it time.

So this is where I find myself. I hope not to be here long!

Stay tuned…for the next adventure of Rheumatoid Arthritis Guy!

Comments 3

  1. Millicent

    Try to remember that “…it came to pass….” And it will pass. I remember a time when there was a problem that I faced that was very difficult. One of the things that I tried to hold on to was the fact that the day would come when the problem would be better & maybe even resolved. Knowing that dark days are temporary helped me get through that. I hope that this difficult time will pass & the day will come when you will feel stronger & free from pain!

  2. Lisa H.

    Oh how I love that book! There’s a sequel to it called Children of God, which is also quite good. Did you know that the author of these books suffers from chronic migraines? I met her at a litcon many years ago & loaned her meds ’til the local pharmacy could get her, so my copy says “Thanks for the drugs!”

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    RA Guy

    Millicent, thank for your (continued) support! You’ll be happy to know that things seemed to turn on a dime for the better right after lunch. It was an unexpected surprise, especially after how rough my morning was. Is this the end of my current flare? I don’t know…but I did have an awesome afternoon and evening, and that counts for a lot.

    Lisa, what a wonderful story. I am really enjoying this book, and am looking to reading the other books by the same author. At the moment it’s 8:30pm and I’m reading right in front of an open window. It’s a lovely cool summer evening, and there is just the slightest of breeze in the air.

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