Resilience in psychology is the positive capacity of people to cope with stress and catastrophe. It also includes the ability to bounce back to homeostasis after a disruption. Thirdly, it can be used to indicate having an adaptive system that uses exposure to stress to provide resistance to future negative events.
I have a feeling at the moment, that if I could bottle it, would be more valuable than gold. Yes, the worst of the flare from the past month does seem to have passed…but it is by no means completely gone. Just this past weekend, after sharing that things were looking up, I was once again beaten up. (I’m not even exaggerating – I was down for the count, and the punches just continued to land…and land…and land.)
I’m not exactly sure what this feeling is, but I think it has something to do with learning how to pick myself back up, time after time. It comes with the realization that when it comes to rheumatoid arthritis, the stumbles that I encounter along my journey are both unpredictable and – to put it quite frankly – unexplainable. Most of all, it comes with the ultimate acceptance that these stumbles are not my fault.
With this understanding, I am able to focus all of my thoughts and energies on the most important thing when I find myself down in the dumps, which is to pick myself back up. I do this with the knowledge that I have absolutely no idea when I will fall again – it could be in an hour, it could be in a week. What I do know is that whenever it happens, I will be ready to pick myself back up. This counts for a lot.
I never though I would say such a thing, but here goes:
The next imminent flare, always lurking around the corner, no longer scares me.
Stay tuned…for the next adventure of Rheumatoid Arthritis Guy!