(Momentarily) Stopped In My Tracks

A couple of days ago, I was absolutely drop-kicked, knocked out, and [insert your favorite beat up metaphor here] by my rheumatoid arthritis. Now, this has happened many times before, so it many regards it wasn’t anything new. This time, however, I received zero warning signs before I was the the midst of a full blown flare.

The good news: When this flare started to take place, I had just arrived walked in the door of my physical therapist’s clinic.

And while I was seemingly teleported almost instantaneously from “normal” life to complete pain and disability (both hands curled up and could not be moved for about an hour and a half), there were a few words that I kept on repeating to myself, over and over.

“When the pain is this bad, the only thing I can do at the moment is try to accept the pain for what it is. If I try to will the pain away, then things are only going to get even worse.”

This thought simultaneously made me feel at peace and scared the hell out of me. I have not had a panic attack in months…but on this day, I did experience some feelings of anxiety.

But before I knew it, the worst had passed. I rested, and ate lunch. A few hours later, I was in my home office, tutoring one of my students.

And just like that, life goes on…

Stay tuned…for the next adventure of Rheumatoid Arthritis Guy!

4 Comments
4 comments
  1. Sue says:

    I know that feeling. Hope you feel better soon! You tutor from home? Are you working full time otherwise?

  2. Linda Newsom says:

    Oh so sorry!!! I had the same thing happen to me while shopping. I kept telling myself do not panic. After awhile I walked out of store like frankinstein I dont know how I made it home. This kept me in bed for 2 days. I also had no warning.
    Peace,
    Lin

  3. Detje Bea says:

    I am sorry to hear that you were in such pain. I hope tomorrow is much better for you. Hugs

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