On many occasions during this past week, I experienced negative energy. No, I’m not referring to bad vibes or the opposite of positive thinking. What I mean is fatigue that was so strong, that my energy levels actually dipped down into the negative…sort of like the mercury, here in the southern hemisphere.
All of this was result of a nasty stomach bug that lasted a whopping five days. Never before have I been hit so strong by the stomach flu. And as if often the case whenever I get sick nowadays, my rheumatoid arthritis went absolutely haywire (or on a bender, as Charlie Sheen would say).
It’s funny, how during these episodes, I yearn to return to just having RA. Sure, living with rheumatoid arthritis is chaotic and unpredictable, but it’s amazing how familiar I am with those symptoms. Add anything new to the mix, and it can just seem a little bit…well…overwhelming at times. I had multiple breakdowns this past week, but I always managed to stay connected with my breath…and in a matter of fifteen minutes or so, usually returned to feeling just a little bit better.
I continue to grow used to not being able to move for certain periods of time, usually due to pain or inflammation. It was a new sensation, however, not being able to move because I didn’t even had absolutely no energy. Even the word fatigue didn’t seem like an appropriate descriptor of what I was feeling.
But it’s Friday afternoon, and I’m finally back to my “normal” self. I am once again, dealing with just RA…and for what I know probably won’t last a long time, it feels like a great thing.
Stay tuned…for the next adventure of Rheumatoid Arthritis Guy!